Friday, February 8, 2008

Massive Sound

My voice lessons are now at this church, and today I saw my first Pipe Organ. These things are massive and amazing! I hope to accumulate millions of dollars one day in order to attain one myself.
Here is the giant beauty:



















Don't the lights at the top just make the thing look heavenly?

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

Do you have no choice?

So, this morning one of my Music Theory classmates caught me asleep in the hallway before class.
"Long night?" He said.
"Naw, early morning"
"How early?"
"4 am."
He flipped out! Wondering as to why I, or anyone for that matter, would ever have to wake up that early. I never really found it to be too big of a deal, but he was literally so taken aback that he even told another one of my classmates that I wake up that early every day. Both of them saying, they "couldn't do it" and "more power to you, man."

The thing is, I have no choice.

On days where I have school and work, I don't get home until 11pm (10pm if I'm lucky enough to get a ride). I don't have a practice room at school, or a locker to place my violin. Which means 3 out of 7 days a week, I have virtually no time to practice music. The same goes for conditioning, but Capoeira class takes care of that 2 days a week. I decided to remedy this problem by placing my practice time early in the morning. This is my way of battling musical and muscular atrophy. So why do I say I have no choice?
Well, my violin teacher had told me a story the other week about a time in his life where he was only able to get 4-6 hours of sleep a night for the entire year. He taught lessons all day, seven days a week, and worked on the construction of his new home and studio when he wasn't teaching. Despite all the fatigue and constant work, he never once became ill. He told me that this phenomenon must be attributed to the fact that he knew he had no choice. If he were to shirk his duties his house wouldn't be built in time, which means he wouldn't have a place to continue teaching music lessons, which means he wouldn't have income from his students, which means he wouldn't have a home, which would ultimately lead to his wife leaving him(who also teaches music lessons). He told me this story because his neighbor's Mother had lost all symptoms of arthritis and leukemia had during the time her husband was dying. Previous to the incident, her doctors told her she maybe had a few months to live. Once her husband became ill, she took care of him for four years, with no sign of arthritis or leukemia slowing her down. After his passing, her symptoms came back and within a year she had passed away as well.

All I have are my goals. For me they provide a greater purpose. If I were not constantly working towards these things, I feel that I too may eventually wither away. At times, I may feel so tired and so stressed that I want to give up everything. But I know, if I keep pushing, one day I'll be looking down from the highest heights and be grateful that I persevered through these harder times. So I've made my future my top priority; I have specifics things that I want to do in my life. By putting these things in front of everything else, I have no choice but to keep going.

I'm applying to study at Sophia University in Tokyo this upcoming academic year.If things don't work out, there's always the future.

A lot changed when I began to ask myself "Do you have no choice?"